Dear Mom: The Best Parts Of Me Are The Best Parts Of You

I beloved this moving-picture demo of my woman rear thence much- It shows the low-cal both inward her in addition to on her.
She was taking a limo upwards to meet her grand-daughter perform inward an off B'way production with
her dejeuner lady crew -
Photo courtesy of my iPhone

Dear Mom  - 

Tomorrow, September 23rd, marks two years since yous left us in addition to I intend well-nigh yous every, unmarried twenty-four hours - And I missy yous terribly.

 That starting fourth dimension eighteen months were a whirlwind in addition to I didn’t know wether I was coming or going -  

The loss of you, the sale of your solid - the partition of your things - It was similar my ticker was existence broken i time to a greater extent than every day. 

My ticker ached in addition to I cried daily for eighteen months - And when I idea I didn't own got whatever tears left, I proved myself wrong.

But, I also felt your forcefulness daily - And I notwithstanding practise - And it is your forcefulness in addition to promise that  makes me rigid in addition to makes me practise what yous ever taught us: To alternative ourselves upwards yesteryear our kicking straps, movement on in addition to last positive. 

As of late, the yesteryear half dozen months, I’ve flora myself having moments of such clarity in addition to resolve - And I know inward those moments, yous were correct beside me - Your forcefulness flowing through me in addition to making my ain forcefulness stronger. 

Those best parts of you - Helping me when I demand it most - 

The best parts of me are genuinely the best parts of you. 

 And I meet in addition to hear the best parts of yous inward your children in addition to grandchildren, I hear in addition to meet your grinning inward my sister, Cathy -And that warms my heart. 
 And your low-cal continues to smoothen for all of us in addition to inward us - And I’m thence God damned thankful for that, mommy. 

Tomorrow is the day, just two years  since your passing - And similar always, yous volition last on my withdraw heed in addition to inward my heart. 

But wonderful things are happening tomorrow -  Positive in addition to neat things that I know would/ in addition to are making yous grinning in addition to bringing yous neat joy. 

Not thence subtle things that are yous in addition to the universe's means of telling me that yous know just what’s going on inward all of our lives - And are happy. 

So taking your lead, because yous were the perfect purveyor of ALWAYS seeing the drinking glass one-half full, I'm going to focus on the positives tomorrow in addition to accept them equally a sign from yous that yous know just what’s going on. 

Positive Things like:

I was asked to attend in addition to utter on a panel at the World Congress on Patient Advocacy in addition to Engagement, the starting fourth dimension twenty-four hours of which starts tomorrow - And to me that was a piddling wink in addition to a grinning from upwards above. 

You letting me know that you’re watching in addition to smiling in addition to are correct at that topographic point amongst me - I innovation on making yous & my DOC proud. 
I innovation on spending tomorrow in addition to Tuesday focusing outward in addition to focusing on ways to assistance others.

Truly amazing things like: 

The fact that tomorrow, Cristin Makes her flavor debut on the flavor premier of  “How I Met Your Mother.” 

And I know it’s non a coincidence that it airs tomorrow - Influenza A virus subtype H5N1 twenty-four hours that commonly makes me cry, volition forthwith convey me ( in addition to all those who beloved in addition to missy you,) neat joy in addition to happiness.

You, who were ever her biggest fan in addition to swain performing creative individual - The Matriarch who instilled the beloved of the Arts to every unmarried i of her children in addition to grandchildren, is letting us know that yous are watching her from inward a higher house - 

Just similar when she was nominated for a Tony - And the awards aired the black of your birthday. 

Both lovely gifts inward the shape of calendar dates that stand upwards for the really essence of the lovely Marjory K.  

So on this twenty-four hours earlier the two anniversary of your passing, I desire yous to know how incredibly grateful I was to own got yous equally my mother, my mentor in addition to my friend.

How I volition practise my best to brand yous proud, today, particularly tomorrow in addition to every day, in addition to perpetuate all the proficient that yous brought to the world. 

Mom  - I beloved yous thence much - And missy you  - But I experience your presence, forcefulness in addition to beloved every day. 

Love yous

Xoxo 

PS: 

Sometimes a slice of music stops yous inward your tracks because it communicates just how yous experience when yous hear it. When I starting fourth dimension heard  Poe’s “If You Were Here,” from the amazing ‘Haunted’ CD, daddy had only passed in addition to the whole album, non to cite the song, hitting the boom on the caput re: my feelings. 

 And forthwith I particularly intend of yous mom, whenever I hear or read the next lyrics. 

“I know that yous would

Truly last amazed

At what's larn of what yous made

If yous were here

You would know how I treasured every day

How every unmarried give-and-take yous spoke

Echo's inward me similar a retentivity of hope

When yous were here

You could non experience the value that I placed

One every expect that crossed your face

When yous were here

I did non know only how I had embraced

All that yous hid behind your face

Could non cover from me

'Cause it hid inward me too

Now that I'm hither I hear yous in addition to wonder if mayhap yous tin hear yourself

Ringing inward me forthwith that your somewhere else.

'Cause I hear your foreign music gentle in addition to true

Singing within me amongst the best parts of you

Now that I'm here

I beloved you...”

  Poe